So yep, I ponned today's training, but with a valid reason okay! Plus my mum didn't allow me to go anyway.

I spent the whole morning chionging LA Journal! Whee I'm left with Entries #8, #9, #10, #11 and #12. Okay not really whee-able since that's still quite a lot left ): Aish but the quality of my entries is really bad. Except for one which I spent 3 hours working on -_- I'm planning to submit that one, and hopefully the teacher (whoever she will be) won't read the rest. They're really, hmmm.

So anyway, yesterday was, hmmm kinda a wasted day.

Met up with Christine, Crystal and Joy at Braddell. Macs for breakfast. Went to SinTen for table-tennis stuff. Actually wanted to get shorts and shoes. But for the shorts, the stock would only come the next day (which is today), and the shoes next month. So yep, all we got was a new rubber (Crystal), and the rubber cleaner thingy (Joy). Kinda told the storekeeper that we would be dropping by today to get the shorts and she said that she would reserve for us, gah of all days and I fall sick today.

Anyway, afterwards, we train-ed+bus-ed to Clementi MRT Station. Mega long bus ride on 156.

Met Siyi, JiaWei and Isabelle for lunch at Subway.

After lunch, met up with the rest before going to NUS (University). So blahblahblah, train a little. Felt really dizzy. Plus headache-y. And feverish. Anyway, yeah friendly match with the Uni students. LOL I seriously didn't know that CCA still exists in University. I mean, wouldn't you be too busy? But anywayy, the first match went kinda well, won by a little (3:2), and the rest was just bleh. Don't even talk about it.

So anyway, NUS's sosososo big it makes NY look kinda pathetic. So yep, bus-ed back to Clementi MRT area and had Mos Burger for lunch. Gosh breakfast, lunch, dinner all out. I'm officially broke broke brokeeeeeee.

Continuing with today! Finished watching Mary Stayed Out All Night! Okay I admit the ending was sweet, especially the breaking up 12 times and getting back together for the 13th time part, but stillllll, MyuGyul annoys me. He's soooo petty. Meh Jung-In ): I feel so sad for him. Gah Kim Jae Wook (at least I think that's Jung-In's real name) better start on another drama soon and this time he'd better be the main lead! And not get pushed aside by the female lead! If not I'll be even more sad sad sad D:

Aish on a different note, seriously idk why but I just feel like giving up table-tennis. I mean like, whatever I do I can't improve. I tried going for training for one whole week straight, staying on for like 5 hours each time, and no I don't see the results. Then, I go for a 2 week hiatus, and I come back starting from Square 1, nono, actually more like Square -21948621894. I got lousier than the starting of the year. WTF IS THIS MANN.

Okay I'm gonna train hard in Li JL's training tmr. LIKE HARD. AND FOCUSED. NOT DISTRACTED. And then, go for Fri's Marist training. And hopefully (crossed-fingers), get onto somewhere. And actually freaking improve. And not feel so disappointed all the time. At this current rate, I'm definitely on the benches next year I'm not kidding. I can sense Chen JL's frustration and ultimately how he's just given up on me. It was so evident on Monday, and just about every training, when he tries to correct me but gah. Gosh I don't even wanna talk about it.

Okay I know ultimately the problem lies with me. How I don't feel the urge to train, how I've just lost it (whatever 'it' is) somewhere along these years, how I just don't get motivated, I just don't seem to feel that kick.

Gah bye. This hols have been so suck-ish. No the whole of 2010 just sucked, table-tennis wise. May 2011 be a better year! Fighting!