I know you think I'm a total bitch I kinda feel sorry but I'm at a loss of what to do too. Somehow things just fell apart I know it's my fault I just couldn't hold on to this friendship any longer and it's causing a lot of hurt, pain, trouble, mess, everything. I do feel guilty I know you're at a total loss as to what happened, it'll be a lie to say I couldn't care less, but yes I do. Just give me a bit of time I need to just calm down and chill and think about the next step. All I can say is sorry I know it's kinda sudden idk what took over me but I guess it's something that has been building up for rather long. Time's changed, you've changed (a lot), I've changed, well I guess maybe we're not that 'suitable' for each other. I kinda knew that sooner or later this would happen I just didn't expect it to be so fast and sudden.I'm really really sorry I do feel the guilt, yes I do. I just need a breathe of fresh air before and figure out where went wrong along the way and what needs to be changed.
I really hope you read this and know that I'm not pissed with you (okay I admit I was I just couldn't stand it any longer you're changing so much but I think I feel a lot calmer now), I just, I really don't know how to explain that feeling but I guess I just don't feel that close to you anymore, just give me some time to think it over.
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YOU KNOW WHAT. SERIOUSLY FINE BE LIKE THAT YOU DON'T EVEN WANNA STOP AND THINK WHY I'M DOING THIS. IT'S ALWAYS ALL ABOUT YOU ALONE, ALWAYS HAVE BEEN, YOU'VE NEVER SPARED A THOUGHT FOR OTHERS. I TAKE BACK ALL MY WORDS. YOU ONLY THINK ABOUT YOURSELF, NO ONE ELSE. HAVE YOU EVER THOUGHT ABOUT HOW I FELT ABOUT EVERY THING YOU DO? AND YEAH THE VULGARITIES JUST SHOW YOUR IMMATURITY, BACK OFF MAN AND ACT YOUR AGE. THERE'S SO MUCH I WANT TO SAY HERE (I JUST DELETED A CHUNK) BUT OH WAIT WHY DO I EVEN NEED TO EXPLAIN TO YOU. YEAH AND I ACTUALLY CARED ABOUT HOW YOU FELT. MAYBE WHEN YOU BECOME MORE AWARE OF HOW PEOPLE ACTUALLY FEEL, AND HOW YOUR EVERY WORD/ACTION MAKES PEOPLE FEEL, YEAH THEN PEOPLE WILL COME BACK TO YOU. YOU KNOW WHAT, YOU'VE REALLY CHANGED A LOT AND TO PUT IT SIMPLY, I REALLY DON'T LIKE THE NEW YOU. YOU WERE DIFFERENT BACK THEN, IDK WHAT HAPPENED. I'M JUST REALLY TIRED OF PUTTING UP WITH YOU. CALL ME A HYPOCRITE, WHATEVER. YOU ARE NO BETTER.
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